“Everything Leading up to that one night when we lay in eachothers arms woo filled with excitement, s asdfadsf ”

Everything Leading up to that one night when we lay in eachothers arms woo filled with excitement, smiles, conversations. Yet after we saw eachother in a state of complete vulnerability all changes and the spark is replaced with void. Does it mean there was nothing to begin with? Does it mean we are too scared to see now if a connection still remains even after our skin was revealed. There is always such a ???? after the highest peak yet every time I Hit the bottom I always want to get higher the most time. Can we ever stay at the top.