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I try to maek my life as least complecated as possible, but my reality is that i have the ability to care deeply for other.This makes me miss people when I am trabeling. It is may biggest fear, yet when I am in their presence, ot is a wonderful experience, I am wondering how to genuinely concel with others, while Not caring so deeply . My romenticisim is feast or famire, please help....