“I’m 20 and can’t find a job, The hell is wrong with me?nAlso, why can’t I be happy asdfadsf ”

I'm 20 and can't find a job, The hell is wrong with me?nAlso, why can't I be happy by myself without constantly being around friends? How do normal people do this?nFinally - been in rehab for an eating disorder all summer. Once I get out, will I relapse? I don't ever want to do this again, but so many people are in & out, over & over...n(cartoon) & I <3 icecream!