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Will I ever B free? Will I ever B true 2 myself? I can't have 1 w/o the other but know the pro's & cons of both. I get 2 live true & free while the ppl I grown 2 know & love will see me in a new light which may go in many directions. I am happy w/ the way things R now except for the ? above.n1 more? If I'm able to become free & true 2 myself, will I be able to love? Thx Demon