“I stole publicly. Ineffectively. I can’t seem to put it behind me. It affects how I relate to asdfadsf ”

I stole publicly. Ineffectively. I can't seem to put it behind me. It affects how I relate to things and ***** conscience *****. Cannot look people in the eye for long. It ***** all a long time ago and I keep trying to make up for it. Nothing seems to work. ***** to do. I want a real life.